A Thin Line

They say that it's a thin line between genius and insanity.  Sadly,  that's probably as close to genius as I'll ever get. 

 Yes... I'm on the other side of that line, for sure.  I have issues and claustrophobia is one of them.  Not sure why or when it started... Did my sister and her best friend lock me in a closet years ago?  Was I held under water by some of the bratty boys at the swimming pool?  I don't know but my fear of enclosed spaces is always in the back of my mind and I'm getting tired of it.

Elevators, airplanes, caves...those have been triggers for years.   If I HAVE  to take an elevator, I have to be right in front of the door.  Don't ask me to move to the back of the elevator!- cuz I'm not moving!  If I am flying, that little overhead fan better keep running, because if that airflow stops, someone's going to get arrested.  And caves?  At a museum trip, when the boys were little, we were welcomed with a cave entrance.  Hubby and the boys took off, I entered, gave it my best shot and ended up, forcing my way back out,  pushing little kids and their parents out of my path to fresh air.  Kind of like a salmon going the wrong way in the spawning season.

I guess some health events lately, have me thinking, more than ever, that I need to seek treatment for my "condition". It's probably time to get help when MRI's have  you more upset about the procedure than the possible outcome.   I was once told that I would be the first person, in the history of the hospital, to require a sedative for an ankle MRI!  Not a fan of that tube!  Maybe it goes back to seeing those "iron lungs" that were used to treat polio when I was a kid that have me spooked.  Who knows?

And movies?  If there is a grave, a submarine, or a spaceship featured, hubby can go alone!  No thanks!  And that's terrible, isn't it? 

If anyone has any ideas on how I can conquer my fear of enclosed spaces, I'm open to anything, short of becoming a druggy.  The name of a good therapist, maybe?

Or perhaps I should just embrace my condition....after all, I'm almost a genius!.